“Are you sure you want to go?”
Nicholas rolled his eyes at Myron for the
sixth time that morning. “Yes, I’m sure,”
Myron frowned at his nephew from across the
breakfast table in their kitchen, the worry lines on his young face growing
more prominent by day, his concern for Nicholas eclipsed everything, a fact
that Nicholas found comforting, but most of the time suffocating.
Nicholas finished chewing his Cheerio’s
and dropped the spoon onto the counter. “Look I can’t stay hauled up in this
flat for the rest of my life,”
“So you think it’s wise to venture out by
yourself; when you have no idea what danger lies before you?” Myron said,
raking his hand through his fair, shaggy hair, a habit which he did when he was
nervous.
“And who’s idea was it that I hide myself
away?” Nicholas bit out. “I’ve wanted to go outside for years, but you insisted
that I stay hidden,”
“That was for your protection,”
Nicholas sighed. He hated fighting with
Myron, on some level he understood his uncle’s concerns, but that didn’t mean
he agreed with them.
“I’m sixteen, Myron, I think I’m old
enough to protect myself by now,”
“For goodness sake, Nicholas, you’re
still a child!” Myron yelled and gestured madly into the space around him,
almost knocking over his cup of coffee. “How am I supposed to look after you
when you won’t let me?”
“Can we please argue about this later?
I’m going to be late for school,”
Nicholas got down from the bar stool he
was perched on and walked swiftly across the room, he reached to grab his
jacket from the coat hanger beside the front door and slung it over his
shoulder. He could feel his uncle staring at him, his blue eyes fixed on the
back of Nicholas’ skull. Nicholas’ fingers began to twitch; a stupid habit he
had picked up from his uncle. He could feel the waves of anxiety rolling off of
Myron. A tidal wave of skittishness that made Nicholas tingle. Reluctantly, he
twisted his body around to face his uncle once more.
“I’m sorry, I know that you’re worried
but I’ll be fine,” Nicholas said. He reached for the brass, doorknob on the front
door, desperate to twist the handle, throw the door wide open and finally have
his freedom. But he hesitated. Nicholas turned his head and looked over his
shoulder. “If anything does happen I’ll phone you straight away, I swear,”
The small smile that graced his uncle’s
face made the built up tension in Nicholas dissipate. He felt a smirk spread
across his cheeks, the ease that the two of them usually shared returning to
normal.
“Have you got everything you need?” Myron
asked, before Nicholas could turn once more and race out the room.
“Yes,”
“Are you certain? Have you got money for
lunch?”
Nicholas fought the urge to roll his eyes
for the seventh time. “Yes,”
“Your bus pass? Mobile phone?” Myron pressed him. “House keys?”
“Yes, yes, and yes! Uncle Myron I have
everything, now I seriously need to go!”
His uncle nodded at him in approval, the
smile small still present on his face. “Alright, alright get on out of here,”
Nicholas whirled around and flung the front door open. He froze for a moment.
The empty corridor loomed in front of him, the daunting prospect of what could
be out there waiting for him, lurking around the corners, made a part of him
want to slam the door shut and run back into his uncle’s arms. But he couldn’t
do that, he had come this far and he knew he would regret turning back the
moment he did. Nicholas stepped over the doorway.
“Oh, and Nicholas?” Myron called out to
him once more, Nicholas turned his body to glance back at his uncle. “Good
luck, kid,”
Grinning, Nicholas gave him a slight wave
and then practically ran down the empty corridor. Myron came out of the flat
and watched him disappear around the corridor, listened for the swing of the
door as his nephew reached the building’s stairs, and the thump of Nicholas’
feet as he descended down them. He needed a cigarette. The bitter tang of tobacco
would soothe him. He hadn’t had one in months and he knew Nicholas would scold
him when he came home. If he came home.
He really needed a cigarette.
London was absolute hell in the morning.
People swarmed the streets carrying briefcases, heels click-clacking against
the cracked pavements, and greasy packages of McDonald’s breakfast drifted
through the open air. It used to frighten Nicholas. The city had burned too
brightly for him when he had first moved here. Now the music of London was his
own personal symphony, plucking at his heartstrings. Some nights he would open
the window in his room, sit on the very edge of the window sill and listen to
the sound of his neighbours arguing, of young girls giggling as they came home
from a night out, of the music blaring from down the street and the constant
hum of car engines drifting across the roads. It would eventually lull him to
sleep. He lived and breathed the city in as if it was his oxygen. Myron was the
same, he had lived in London ever since he was a child, the city had become a
beacon to them both. Though for Myron it held some painful memories too. He
didn’t talk to Nicholas much about his childhood, he always said it was easier
to forget. Nicholas never pushed him, never asked any questions, because he too
had a childhood that he longed to leave behind.
He walked down the street, away from the
safety of Myron’s flat and out into the wilderness. It had been weeks since he
had last stepped outside, under his uncle’s watchful eye of course, the idea of
finally being allowed to walk outdoors without being constantly watched was
startling. The prospect of going to school was as if he had stepped into a
foreign world. He had been home schooled his whole life, despite his protests,
he hadn’t spoken to a person his age for ten years and he would be lying if he
said he wasn’t terrified.
Nicholas rounded the corner onto Maddox
Street. The Victorian shops and hotels reminded him of his and Myron’s flat. It
was an old, dreary, tall building with grey bricks and long windows, the sleek
black door had a rounded top and the number sixty-two was fixed on in golden
lettering. The letter box was a dull silver and the door handle was brass like
the doorknob inside of their flat. There were steps leading up to the doorway,
an iron fence lining them, and a bike which had been chained to the fence since
they had moved in five years ago. He hadn’t wanted to move at first. Before, they
had lived at Myron’s old studio flat on Park Avenue. The flat was cramped, with
cracked walls and only a double bed to sit on, it’s tiny kitchenette had smelt
of grease and the little washroom had faulty shower taps. But Nicholas had
loved it. He had loved the cracked walls and the small space which had bound
him and Myron together so tightly. There were nights when Nicholas’ skin would
break out into a cold sweat, he would wake up screaming, the smell of burning
wood filling his nostrils and the flames licking at his skin. Myron had always
been there to hold him. Assuring him that it was only a dream. But Nicholas
knew that it wasn’t.
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